Thoughts on Life...Lately

I always have a lot of thoughts swirling around my mind.  If my mind had a mental recorder, this blog would be filled with tons of posts about the life I lead.  Boring it might be, but I always want to write about my musings on life.

Lately, I've really been "realizing" my age.  I'm 26.  When I look back on the life plan that I thought I would have (granted this was planned in middle school), there are several things that haven't turned out the way I thought.  I thought that I'd be engaged, possibly married by now.  Every time I see a baby, I have a deep longing to be a mother.  It's more of a tug now than ever before.  I have always wanted to be a mother, but was obviously fine with just snuggling with other people's babies.  Now, there is more of a desire to be a mother.  To snuggle with my own child.  Teach morals, values, letters, and books to a small person.  I get to be a mother every day to 90 students, but it'd be nice to have one of my own!

I know that life is planned in a certain way for a certain purpose.  I get that.  I wouldn't want to rush things.  I doubt I could handle a dog at the moment, so why do I think I could handle another little human being?  I know that patience is a virtue, and I'm really trying to "get that" and be okay with it, but boy is it hard sometimes!

In the month of November, I am more aware of all the wonderful things around me.  All the things to be truly thankful for.  My list is overflowing, and I'm happy that I have such a wonderful group of friends, sweet family, and a good job.  There's always something inside me wondering what the next step is.  What should I do next?  But, I'm trying to live in the moment.  Bask in the multitude of thanks that I feel. When it is time to leap onto the next step, I will jump and do it.  I just hope it's an obvious one!