My to-do list has been brimming and busting at the seams. Each day instead of crossing something off, it seems as if I add two more things. Totally "one step forward-two steps back" type of deal. Now, I don't mean to complain. I love my job and the responsibilities that my school has allowed me to acquire. I enjoy staying busy and feeling apart of this great community, but sometimes, when I'm laying in bed running through my to-do list, I beg my brain to just....stop.
It's easier said than done. After talking with my therapist (oh yea) and my friend, I realized that my to-do lists are my coping mechanism. When I can list it out, look at exactly what needs to be done, it somehow...as crazy as it seems...makes me feel better. But it's also a catch-22, as in it also has the tendency to freak me out.
Stop. Take a breath. Let it out. Breathe.
It's too much sometimes. I let it get in the way of what is really important in my life. I don't stop to take all the beauty that is in my life. This morning I was turning out of my driveway and I looked up at the sky. It stunned me in its beauty. It was amazing to see such a grand sky after such a terrible storm, but isn't that life? After the rain comes the sun. This is life. That is the real to-do list - taking in God's beauty and sweet blessings.
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